It's been a while, eleven days to be exact, since my last post because my life's been a bit crazy. I'm not really sure what's brought this craziness on but I haven't been home alone much at all.
I think the best song to describe me and my actions right now is Chipmunk's new song. In between flirting with other people's boyfriends at parties and drunkenly calling a guy that I know he's a slag when he tells me that he wants to be monogamous to me, I'm fast becoming the person your friends warn you about.
I can't say I'm overly bothered about this though as one thing I've always been is honest. In the past week I think I actually used the line 'The lyrcs of Taio Cruz' most recent song really apply to me right now, are you sure you still wanna do this?' This doesn't excuse all behaviour as you can't really say 'Yeah, I killed your family. I'm being honest about it though so it's fine...' Here it's more of a 'This is how things are and the state of mind I'm in. If you don't like it/if it's not what you want, then you don't have to get involved'. This usually doesn't simplify matters though as many guys seem to have hidden what they really want and look like they're gonna blame me when they get hurt.
The reason for this sudden plummet in general morals and loss of ability to treat guys well is something I can't really pin-point. Up to now my conscience has always been too strong and I've always been the one to be hung up (if you haven't noticed). I think those days are now over maybe owed to the fact that, once looking for a guy for a relationship, I'm now looking for THE guy. While my standards for sleeping with someone have probably gone down I would say the opposite has happened for being in a relationship with someone. I just hope that I don't amass too much of a reputation before I find Mr. Right or he may well pass me by.
More to follow.