As you know I've finished my resits and I've spent the majority of the past couple of weeks on my own. It's been fun, I mean, I've been alone with my thoughts. I don't have anyone telling me what to do either. I can cook what I want and not care if the kitchen smells or if I'm watching crap on TV. All in all, life alone is good. there's no one to judge me or tell me their opinions. I can truly be myself.
However, as with everything, there are a few drawbacks. Due to lack of contact with the outside world, I've resorted to recording myself and video blogging or vlogging for those in the know. It feels really strange as you're just talking to a camera, not even a person and I'm not sure I'm being myself, probably 'uptight trying too hard' me but I'm sure I'll get used to it. So far I've pretty much been a bit of a girl and talked about 'my feelings' (at what point did I start needing this many outlets for them?) which means that I wouldn't upload the videos onto the Internet or anything at the moment which kinda defeats the object. Anyway it's a useful way of documenting things and maybe, just maybe (if you're very unlucky) depending on how my life pans out they may appear on here at some point. We'll just have to see how everything goes.
There's also the fact that living alone means that I'm truly alone. This was brought to my attention in a not too pleasant way a couple of nights ago when I was watching adverts, or commercials if you're not from around here, and it was getting late so it was dark outside. I think there was a run of about three adverts promoting horror films out at the cinema or on DVD. One of the movies advertised was the reknowned '[●REC]' and whoever said that foreign films are the scariest was probably right with this one as it looks terrifying. Now in the best of circumstances horror films don't generally agree with me. I mean I like watching them but yep, I admit it, I get scared quite easily. Seen as the movie is about people in an apartment block at night, the advert was close enough to my situation to freak me out. There was also another advert for 'The Strangers' which is about two people in a house who probably die. These two coupled with the fact that there are no working lights in the hall or any of the landings (on three floors) and I thought I was hearing sounds of laughter from the multitude of empty rooms drove me to almost hysteria. I ended up running up the stairs, shutting my door and refusing to leave my room. It wasn't fun. It's just fortunate that people are coming to visit me this weekend :p
Thanks for reading.